LOST, FOCUS.

i seriously need someone to guide me in life now.
What should i do in school. like how things havent been going very well. School kicked start, as usual, for some particular lectures and tutorials, i just had difficulties staying awake. felt like nodding off and wheneevr i was about to just tell myself,''forget it la, you are tired, just slp'' somehow its just guilty conscience that i will force myself to listen again to the lectures.T_T
How am i gonna survive this year. Im sure studies are no easy kick. CCA wise, hmm, busy with all the appeal and auditions and realised how people are kiasu and despo and some just really cannot be bothered. Like they come for the audition merely cos to try their luck. They can be late and they don give a damn bout it. If that's the case, why come for our auditions. i really don get it. But i guess i cant say too much either, we are also in a crisis, where we are critically in need of players. I really cant wonder what if we go up in such a small number. It already reflects us badly at first glance by the judges, what next!? Havent really been racticing much too, i admit. I rarely touch my qin only like the day before combine then i will take out and play a few times then keep back. Not organised at all.mansss!!
Feel so drained out mentally every day, every single one. When im tired, i dont know who to turn to. Everybody has their own woes and troubles alrdy. Sharing with my close friends wil only add on to theirs. And things wont get any better. Even so if they are involved in it. tired, really tired.
WITH LOVE,QIAO HUI
the thought of you is the only motivation to keep me going. tired, drained out.byeee