LIFE'S A MESS

credits:my senior who took this photograph :] i like this photograph!

Things hasn't been going well for me this few days.Well, there's too many in fact i don't know where to start off.Please dont continue reading cos im gonna warn you it's a ranting post where i will just blabber all out.I need to vent out all my feelings. I am sad and angry.Sad because of dearest pw, chloe.angry because of certain friendships that was once so pure that turned out into something so catastrophic. I miss everything in the past, change is the only constant thing in the world, people change, things change and hence, my perception changed.

Pw- okay firstly, things were much worse than expected with the pw comm only accepting 40% of our group's work.Redo-ing the second strategy= MEGA CUI. All our efforts have proved futile. Needless to say, there goes my wonderful EOM BYEEE(goes down the drain) I'm seriously a sleep deprived kid and i hated times when i had to slogged through the night up till 3am,4am just to rush the pw wr and waking up again at 5.30am to print everything out.Accepting this piece of news was like the worst ever la. There goes my weekend too, saturday will be on erhu and pw.sunday will be mugging day:l

Chloe- after the alarming news yesterday, she still stayed as strong as ever, having the power, the will to continue living. She gives people around her the a glimer of light , the hope to continue embracing life, with resilience and courage. commendable for a baby less than a year old to transmit such values of life. I should learn from her, she's a brave lil girl, indeed. When doctors came to check on her, she gave them the assuring look though she did potray slight discomfortness during some treatment(withdrawal of phelgm) but the fact that she chose to continue living and this bought motivation and great heaps of encouragement for everyone around her. May you hurry recover and be like a normal kid running around at the playground or cycling in the parks:)cmon chloe, jie jie have faith in you

Friends- Well , i really don't know how to handle such situations. Maybe i feel that time highlighted each other's flaws and we had trouble communicating. There's a reason for everything. There's a reason why i dont aproach you guys for certain subjects. You should know why, cos i know you guys wont be interested and i will end up drwoning myself in sentences. In other words, some of you guys i feel that i have more common topics, easier to relate to you, some lesser thus a lil harder to relate but im trying already.School life is already so taxing. Now making friends is another problem. Sometimes i realy wonder if it was a right choice going to a jc? making myself so stress out of studies , friends, cca etc-.-i really hope for things to be better cos now all i really want is to pass my promos, get onto honour roll and get enrolled into a university after A levels, then it's byebye to this kind of life. It sucks, seriously. i wanna and am going to university with vivien , felicia, michelle, xinying. i really find that somehow, i can relate to them better . It takes time.give me some , yea?

Too many things are simultaneously happening. This wekend tomo will be spent on pw amd erhu so hopefully i will be very productive given the fact that now my group i slagging behind.

I need a shoulder to lean on

LOVE,QIAO HUI

hard to meet, harder to part.

this post is dedicated to an awesome tcher calld Mr wongyyy:)
This past 5 years, thanks for everything. From things in the textbook to lessons in life and even being there for us to talk to. Seriously, you are more like a friend than a teacher and i dare to say it out loud that i can talk to you more than some other friends and im really fortunate to have known you!

I missed the way you scolded us, the way you sweep the floor and after which will scold us, the way you told us to ''ZHEN ZUO YI DIAN'', the way you told me to pass down messages or send relays, the way u counted every single minute such as holding EXCO meetings at 2:57pm LOL, the way you sang during june2008 co camp, the way we laughed over everything, the way you treated the june came comm to swensens, the way you treated EXCO 08/09 to fish and co, the way you insult us everyday when you walk pass the corridoor, the way we panicked when syf's nearing, the way we took your iphone and posted all unglam photos on fb!!epic~,the way LIFE WAS IN PRSS.

I will miss the way you look like in the awesome-est CO TEE in the world, the way you insult us, the way you look like , the way you talk and the most important thing, your presence.:] BEST TEACHER ! even remembered you won that what was that?!OHH''most caring *ahem teachers award! a popular teacher among the students of prss.+ one who brought co to greater heights.

Remember to stay in contact with us hor!i will miss this GREAT teacherrrDD:every 04/04 and 20/04, i will remind you that once again a year has passed since PRSSCO had our priceless moments :D

Studied at home today and went out for dinner with my familyyy and i cannot believe actually i can do vectors:DD!3 weeks cming up next week, leaving school earlier on tuesday, missing peD:

OH one new discovery, there's a senior in nyco who's very very funny. He's called sebestian. & his favourite word is perception!(this is not a perception) and he can link everything up like a philosopher. i think he can be one in the future cos the english he uses is so CHIM. reallly( or at least to me cos it's again a matter of PERCEPTION, im sure u agree)hahah, had quite a fun time talking to this ''yet to be'' philosopher maybe cos it's the first time people talk to me in such sophisticated english. i think my english vocabulary had increased a little just now( this is MY perception) and i learnt how to use the word PERCEPTION really well today.(once again, it's my perception!)HAHA:)

omggg, i have erhu tml morning, wish me luck that i dont get scolded and this is a MEGA long post!!longest i ever written!

WITH LOVE,QIAO HUI

feeling all mixed up

Siblings fight, do they?

my day started of pretty badly and kinda got affected by it when i came home and see you-.-

Well, firstly i wanna tell you that I am just given the task to wake u up. fullstop. I am not asked to get scolded by you for no shit reason okay. I know, who doesn't want more time to sleep!?But the fact that you need to attend school and that we need to get out of the hse early in the morning forces you to fall out of ur slumber land at 6.30. 6.30 ok, pls la, you are already like the last one to wake up.In any case, if you do not need me to wake you up, just tell me nxt time. I would greatly appreciate that instead of having you shouting at me in the morning for NO REASON T_T if you wanna spoil someone's day, it would better not be mine, cos i will just black face you all the way, you know your sis, i have my limits too yea.I thought we were more mature more ''loving '' as in siblings love and stuff but i'm sad to say this relationship had not even stand the test of getting you to wake up, well, get real , that's all i can say. For how long this cold war is gonna be, i dono, it's up to you.

School's hectic, long time since i blogged. Dont know what to say. Met up with erhu clique yesterday night at TM swensens, the food there was not appetizing and the air con was freezing. Chi oral was a disappointment, hoe i get my A:X

CO is getting -, but lucky for shell and peien, otherwise i dont think i can survive, cos they are the ones i can talk to in co;]the progress of us learning a song is like mega slow ttm. HAHAH i seriously think zhang ls teaches better. He only taught me for like less than 30 sec and i could play it alright!Not that im some genius or what but really, he's effective and efficient:D

LEssons long and certain awkwardness within the group at times, hopes the air hurry clears up for me to see the sun again.

Even though it's all in the past, i will let go, i know i have to. bye

WITH LOVE, QIAO HUI

BYE

prata @ midnight

SHANDONG in 2008!
Suddenly found this picture in my file and decided to post it.i realised my files are always filled with overseas pictures and lesser pictures taken in spore.i have like australia, malaysia, shandong, japan haha!it's time to build up on my spore collection

WELL, PW WR VER 2000 or rather version 1 had been accomplished last night.pw is really siao.i wonder why the ''wonderful'' __JC suggested it.(it's better not to put names here)They are like so retarded, if they din suggest this , wouldn't studebts have more time instead to spent hitting the books to crave for better results? seriously.But on the brigth side, at least my team was good or rather easy to get along with. we even had like prata last night can! We decided to take a break afterr joel and orson came followed by jody then at 11 plus we went to prata house for prata, + the TEH ICE joke:D funny ttm~may be i think i can use a few words or sentence to describe my froup mates:D
Jody-if she has got a task and stay focused, she can really complete it in a very fast time! & somehow may be is she too tall la(but im not that short okay!) she like one jiejie to me can.
Joel-wa this guy invented the teh-bing joke super funny . and his most important sentence in life'' sleep is very important!LOL he likes to sing the what do u wan from me song HAHA
Orson-very task orientated guy who really jian chi all the way and one who likes to dance?!!LOL and lately being teased by his very own pw grp mates wahaah the reason: everybody knows
To conclude on my group mates: pw would not have been ale to carry on if not for them. w/o those laughters in pw u think i would have long ago given up on pw.freaking time consumingT_T

Now on the results, well, i only got back GP AND MATH. LIKE WTH LAAAD:
okay for once im gonna say I AM DEMORALISED BY MATH. serious.hope gp can be pulled up still but yea basically that's all bout math. YEs I FAILED LIKE kanasaiiii):25/66 crap la and i am so gonna ask mr tan to be my good friend already lor. i really wanna do well for my promo which is like in 3 mths time?kaoz that's mega fast and JC1 honeymoon year is gonna conclude with a byebye~im really scared. placing my hopes on arts subjects geog & econs, come on, do me proud yea results!?

Lately, i feel down.partly due to math then also due to chloe which like adds on or double the ): to )): plus ... shant mention it,well, i just feel that it happens all at once . It's too fast in a sudden and i cannot take it . seriously, well i admit i am not strong emotionally and can break down rather easily but even so i will come back stronger than before and life will carry on, i suppose.

Next week is gonna be another crazy packed week. mon HOLIDAY DUE TO WORLDCUP:DWOOHOO NY FTW
tuesday get back resuts i think
wed celebrate michelle's bday with exco plus CO talks and stuff,There's this NE camp thing for NE reps but i am so gonna pon it:) i rather go co, at least i wont feel lonely , i have fun and i feel happy there.not like being an NE rep , i go there like some solo warrior like a retard la haha.
thurs get back results again and friday official start for our combine pieces again.gonna be a short week ahead. But right now i wanna go do my EOM.

BYE PEOPLE
WITH LOVE,QIAOHUI

PLAY TIME ENDS TODAY

MR WONG'S FAREWELLL(dinner) ):

met at tm at 5.30 or rather 5.45 cos the organiser was late!when i reached, feli weee was still at raffles place!i so wanted to kill her la.Then we went to pizza hut for dinner.WOW i must say somehow they XING WU le. like really their service was sooo wierd.They even have tags with their name on top and this ryan guy was like we keep gossipping that their service was good cos they scared people complain them and crap(the name was imprinted on the card itself) Then they also made balloon sculptures and they were giving out these pink flower balloons and i think it's really nice!then mr wong keep liu yi that balloon girl can!HAHA

We ordered this family meal and mr wong was like so afraid we cannot finish our food even though obviously there will be leftovers lor!and he was so happy and excited when he knew his HSBC card hold a 25% discount(funny ttm!)and after eating we chat bout lots of things from school(prss to ny)to chen ls to zls to ding ls and all the diff ls in PRSS and how diff prss was from the others .it's only like prss where our pencil cases had to be transparent & stuff.made me prcticed it in ny and i look like some sua gu uh!LOL prss is a nice place to learn grow + nuture in.had a grea time laughing but vivien wasnt there as she had to pei her korkor.hope her brother gets well soon:)

Oh & last saturday,i decided to buy one new erhu which cost like $2000/- kinda pricey but zhang ls said it's time we change our erhu to a better one so that it helps in the taking of our grade7 this yr too!WELL, i definitely hope so.OH BUT BAD NEWS i gotta sell away my old one.asking mr wong if he would wana consider asking like prss to buy my erhu i would sell it for min $500?:D my precious darling luh~better be taken good care of, otherwise i rather not sell it!

schools in tml,which means less computer and back to mugging mode!bye~

GOOD NIGHT!

WITH LOVE,QIAOHUI

one wave after another.it never ends

MASS DANCE(a long ago in japan photo)
i dont know what i should feel right now.ecstatic that exams are over, no more homework no more stress or what.it never ends.condition of lil chloe is up and down and just confirmed with pompe.d?),: now i guess all that we can do?provide moral support and help in any way we can.treatments are costly, risky i suppose and it pains my heart to see it.She got the symptoms and stuff but the fact is she's an infant.my god like only a 7mth old one.she smiles giggles and it's very cute.all babies are like that, they just smile and really bring joy to everyone.oh well, seriously hope everything's gonna turn out well for her and she will be freed from all the pain.well, i believe miracles do happen so all's not lost yet.i still keep faith.

going to Hokkaido fair with vivien later and after which shop around and go for erhu lesson.it's been ages since i last went for the lesson and also saw vivien due to exams.now tht it's over i feel so relaxed.having bbq later, but not really in the mood to.my brother's diving friends are cming over but i guess i will go downstairs take my food and come to my room lock myself up and watch toy story cos i also have not much topic to talk with them .Firstly i dono anyone?or maybe yes but damn little and secondly i only talk to like one person within his grp?uncle carrot.haha so yea later shall be watch movie time.

Sunday's supposed to be spent with the girls out at sentosa but i cant go .argh feel so shit.sorry girls.do enjoy urselves yea;] i will make jelly fr u all on tuesday promise.:)
going down to the hospital on sunday with my family and my other cousins i guess?should be there for like quite a while discussing how to go and stuff,really wished i could help.

Monday's gonna be another slack day.shall make jelly for the girls on this day and also meeting up with vivien feli shell xin and kylie in the evening to eat with wongyy for his farwell dinner.argh* people come and leave but why the good ones leave?D:seriously hope he can stay on in prss.but anyway, i shall write a card for him later or tonight.intend to write one for my ah yi and uncle too.cant wait to meet up with prss peeps.

Tuesday is gonna be good ( or at least i hope) results are coming back . i am really like scared and i think i will breakdown very easily man.ohmy okay i shall be strong and i will face it.ye si will!okays time to go have my breakfast now.bye~
23/7/10 is PRSSCO ALUMNI NIGHT<3

WITH LOVE,QIAO HUI